It’s been hard to write lately. Life has been changing so rapidly, I have barely had time to blink before the way I feel about everything shifts, and I’m confused all over again. I hate to sound like a brat, but 2020 was supposed to be our year….well, shit. After over three years of living [...]
20/20
The start of a New Year is an interesting time. We reflect and we project and we set new goals for self-improvement, and then somewhere around mid-February we fall back into our normal pattern of life. 2020, for our family, marks the start of what we hope will be a whole new lease on life; [...]
Closing in on the finish line
It’s been a while since I’ve put the figurative pen to paper and written anything of length about Calum, his health and how we are all continuing to make our way through life. So much of my thoughts about Calum and Leukemia, at this point, are consumed by us being so close to finishing this [...]
Fake It till You Make It
When I was playing sports in college, my coach used to tell us, “fake it till you make it”. As a freshman on the field, you’re nervous. You don’t know the system or the plays very well yet, so you just run and you pretend like you know exactly what you’re going to do with [...]
The Courage to Take it Easy
So, it is really upon us now. Just a few more weeks and we will be welcoming our third baby. Being on the verge of another major life change for our family is stressful, but I have a changed perspective this time around. There’s a lot of little things I am worried about, like how [...]
Know Your Role
A lot of my life now is defined by being a wife and a mother, especially since Calum’s diagnosis and the extra care necessary in my role as a mom, given his circumstances. This is my most important role in life and, indeed, the role I am most proud to occupy. My family is first [...]
December 26th is not just the day after Christmas.
December 26th has always been a day I have loved. Growing up, it was fun because it was an opportunity to properly absorb what you had been given on Christmas day without the hustle of having to get out the door to a family party. You could sort through all the different Chapstick flavors from [...]
Oh, Baby
So, we’ve done it again. We’re going to have another baby. It’s taken me a while to feel ready for this after all we went through in the last couple years, but we have always wanted three kids, and I ain’t getting any younger. Planning a pregnancy is something I had not strategically tried to [...]
I’m Secretly a Barber
Around the time Calum was about a year and a half old, his hair was becoming pretty shaggy, but it was so beautiful. It had finally morphed from the scraggily mullet he sported for the first year or so of life, into a luscious blonde mop atop his head. The back of his hair was [...]
Wanted: A Nanny with Diaper and Assault Rifle Training
Before I had my own, I’ve never been much of a “kid person” per se. I'm not a monster; I like kids plenty now, but through adolescence and early adulthood, outside of relatives, I’ve had very little use for children. Babysitting was like being paid to go to prison for the day. You are confined, [...]
Big Time Adulting 